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Life is such an irony. When we are a child, we wish to grow up. Now that we have grown up, we wish to go back to our childhood days and return that innocence back into our life. Carelessness in those surroundings, that free spirited soul and mind. That Era of innocence is the most magnificent era of our lives. The innocence of those days we will want to treasure for an eternity to last. Free from the worry of what future will lead to.. I am caught up in this swirl of emotions , emotion’s that express my feeling of being numb, that empty space or the void I feel inside and the need for some to fill me up like never before. I ask myself why do I feel that way, answers lie deep within me buried somewhere refusing to come up and show me that faint light that would lead me to contentment. I am upset, very upset from myself. I realize that I have stopped loving myself. There was this time when I used to love myself and eventually give others that kind of love they deserve from my side. But these many days I fail to do so because I accept the lack of love for myself. I have started to hate my life, myself. I feel entrapped in the cycling trivialities of my life . Is it normal to feel so much in present world when we are so self- absorbed in our busy lives and fail to observe the minute things of life. I feel the need for someone to understand me, someone I could share things with.  Change is the law of nature. Then why is it so difficult to adapt to it. I know the answers lie right inside me... I wish I just had the light to lead me to the path to my destination. I  wish my life had freedom just  like a tiny winy bird that can fly as high as she wants no one to judge her flight.

 

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