Life is such an irony. When we are a child, we wish to grow up. Now that we have grown up, we wish to go back to our childhood days and return that innocence back into our life. Carelessness in those surroundings, that free spirited soul and mind. That Era of innocence is the most magnificent era of our lives. Th e innocence of th ose days we wi ll wan t to treasure for an eternity to last. Free from the worry of what future will lead to.. I am caught up in this swirl of emotions , emotion’s that express my feeling of being numb, that empty space or the void I feel inside and the need for some to fill me up like never before. I ask myself why do I feel that way, answers lie deep within me buried somewhere refusing to come up and show me that faint light that would lead me to contentment. I a m upset, very upset from myself. I realize that I have stopped loving myself. There was this time when I used to love myself and eventually give others that kind of love they deserve